Validation

I don't understand my incessant need for approval.It's as if I need to be validated for every little thing I do,every little thing I think up or the way I see things.What vexes me even more,is that I do things my way anyway,despite what anybody else might say.So,yes,it confuses me why I look for approval and throw it aside like yesterdays ham-sandwich once I get it or couldn't care less if if I didn't.I cant put it in words,how this feels like,so I'm afraid this will be a half-assed description.

Hmm,I've found that blogging can be very therapeutic.

Went to the AGAPE church.....wait,let me finish before you judge me :)..to watch a play."Bow the Knee" it was tittled.Very good it was.Hats off to the choir,who,personally,was mind blowing.Acting and singing was all good.And while I was watching,a certain SEXY of mine went back to the "Land of Excessive Methane Emissions".Went MAMAK(Malaysia's saving grace) after that.It was all good fun.

Ahhh,as the year progresses,the analogical cloud of my depression seems to just grow darker.Though I highly doubt that the "massive turnaround" I was hoping for,is going to happen.It's all downhill from here baybeh!

Well,at least until December :)

Till next time,

CIAOX

Patience Wears Thin

Today has only reinforced the desire of breaking the cage,spitting on it and flying away.The frequency of my returns shall be most debatable.It has been made quite obvious that what is right and what is wrong does not matter anymore.It's all about keeping them good and happy for now.

Exploration Is A Wonderful Thing

True,I am bored to death.

True,I despise having to study.

True,SPM is looming over me like Godzilla's really fat mother.

True,I don't exactly have as much freedom as I used to.

But,I am content :) My world is upright now.

My life is no longer a puzzle where all the pieces don't fit.

For now,I got my head on right.Nothing to do with my

"I know what I want to do with my life"post though.

A completely different matter.

Well,it's been ages since my last proper post.The last one was just lyrics,so it doesn't count :) I think I've made it clear from the above that I'm in a good place in my life now.And dayumm does it feel good! XD The only wish I have is that I could rid myself of the constant buzz-kill,namely,SPM and I could have the party,friends and freedom to compliment this feeling :D But,alas,I shall have to slog it out for another 8 months.

Well,a certain SEXY of mine is coming back in about 5 days,so,thats something to look forward too :D Thank god I made a deal with my parents,for the 2 weeks my Guitar Overlord returns,I shall be released from my cage and shall gleefully dance and skip around the lands.I know it sounds gay.Don't judge me :D

Well,I think I better stop here,at risk of sounding redundant.

Till the next post,

CIAOX

The Emo Express

The Scientist - Coldplay

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry

You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Oh tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I’m going back to the start

Prisoner

I feel oppressed.I feel like an animal.I feel like I've been thrown into a cage.

Hypocritical,unreasonable,overbearing parents have left me no choice but to resign myself to a life of a hermit.

Looks like the only sanctuary I have available is,my room,and how sad of a prospect that seems to be.

FML,truely.

CIAOX

Found

All At Once-The Fray

There are certain people you just keep coming back to
She is right in front of you
You begin to wonder could you find a better one
Compared to her now she's in question

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there

Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind
But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it,
Maybe it's all you're running from,
Perfection will not come

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes
We'd never know what's wrong without the pain
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you've started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you had her maybe you lost her to another
To another

Owh,how this song speaks volumes to me :D LOL

RACE

Owh hello! :D I'm feeling quite at ease today.Sleep does wonders I suppose.Usually I'd still be in bed staring at the celling ruminating on my life.But I felt like I should make this a productive day.So I went running for about an hour at 7,got back around 8,had some beef bacon,took a shower,waited for my computer to slowly wheeze to life,Google Chrome :D But actually I didn't have anything to blog about today,until I felt the sudden urge of egalitarianism as I remembered a conversation I had with Richard.So,today I shall be ranting o about Race,keeping in line with my blogs "random" agenda :D

I don't see the need of differentiation or classification of race.White,black,brown,yellow,pink,blue-ish green,magenta,we are still just people.We keep seeing how race does nothing but create conflict and acts as a rift between people.Take for example,HITLER.Nearly wiped out the Jews,and why? because he wanted to create "The Perfect Race" or something along those lines.In Malaysia itself,every race sneers and looks down upon each other,judging others as if they were the very gods themselves.Arrogance and a superiority complex,thats what racial classification gives you.I've come across Malaysian's who've said "Be careful of that guy,he looks like bad news and plus he's (insert Race here).It brings a bad taste to my mouth to hear comments like these and it only disturbs me more to know that for a good portion of my life,I might have been exactly like that.It is gonna be an awesome day when everybody learns to look past skin colour and place of origin.But I guess that will never happen,because human beings are creatures who are naturally prone to pride and stupidity.

Random enough?LOL XD Owh well,I'm hungry now.Until the next selectively random post.

CIAOX